"My subconsicousness is trapped inside my very own Mueseum of F*cked Memories and it screams every moment to gain freedom."
Discover a captivating collection of life experiences and random thoughts transformed into powerful words,Dive into a world of raw emotions and profound reflections,Uncover a treasure trove of introspection and vulnerability as you explore the diary entries of a person navigating the depths of Life
The Museum of Forgotten Memories
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Struggle for Existence, Struggle for Acceptance
According to the great naturalist,who gave the theory of evolution, Charles Darwin the struggle for existence was pretty f*cked up in the early eras like paleozoic,jurrasic and stone age,you only had two conditoins two live,eat or get eaten [herbivores are ecxeptions and humans who were vegetarian even during that time] this represents the struggle,the f*cked upness and natural selection.
Now in the present day, when you are a honorary citizen and a good person [ execptions are always avoided] in the 21st century,the struggle for existence changes to struggle for acceptance,in this world there are 2 rules :-
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When you only live to play football
Football is more than just a sport,for many it's the way of life,an unwavering passion that transcends boundaries,cultures and generations.From the roaring crowds in massive stadium to the neighbourhood kids playing on dusty fields,the beautiful game has an unparalled ability to unite people and create lifelong bonds.Let's take a deep dive into the passion and culture of the beautiful game.
For those whose lives are interwined with football,the journey often begins at a young age. It's not just about kicking a ball; it's about the sheer joy and excitement that coms with every goal scored,evvery skill perfected and every match played.The passionis ignited on dusty streets,makeshift ptches or even in the living room,where we dribble around furniture and scoring in the foal post created on the wall and our imagination of playing the real games with the players we see on television.
In many households,football is not just a personal choice;it's a family tradition passed down through generations.From grandparents recounting tales of legendary players to parents taking their children to their first match,footbal becomes a shared experience that binds families together.The emotional highs and lows of supporting a team create a unique bond that transcends time and becomes an integral part of the family.
As these football enthusiats grow,so does their connections to the local football scene.Local clubs become the epicentre of their social lives,where weekends are spent cheering on the home team and forging friendships that last a lifetime.The community aspect of football is deeply ingrained,as fans find solace and a sense of belonging in the shared joy and heartbreak that comes with supporting a team.
For some,football isn't just a hobby-it's a fundamental aspect of their identity.The colors of their team are worn with pride,and the club's anthem is etched into their very being.Supporting a football team becomes more than a choice,it becomes a statement about who the are and where they come from.
Now,what exactly I mean when i say football is my life,when you play the game every goal you score has a different feeling,every dribble you do,every defender you beat gives you adrenaline rush and when you send a through ball to your player and your whole team shouts,"what a pass!" this is all in it's entierity what palying football is and the joy you get after wining and the experience you gain after losing.This is what football is all about.
For the players who play for their clubs and their countries every game counts and they always play as their life is dependent on it,as for the fans,they a known for their rituals and superstitions,ranging from wearing lucky jersey to following a specific routine on match days.These rituals aren't just quirks;they are an integral part of the fan experience,adding an extra layer of emotional investment to the game.
One of the defining aspects of a life dedicated to football is the emotional rollercoaster that comes with it.The ecstasy of a last-minute winner,the agony of a missed penalty,and the nervous anticipation before a crucial match,these emotional highs and lows are all part of the game.The collective euphoria or heartbreak experienced by fans during pivotal moments is a to the profound impact football can have on one's emotions.
Football culture extends beyond the 90 minutes on the pitch. It encompasses everything from fan chants and stadium rituals to the art, music, and fashion associated with the sport. Football-inspired graffiti adorns city walls, while fan-created music becomes anthems that echo through the terraces. The fusion of football and culture creates a vibrant tapestry that enriches the overall experience for those immersed in the world of the beautiful game.
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If Solitude and Loneliness Were a Couple
In the vast expense of human emotions,solitude and loneliness often exist as distinct entities,each with its own narrative.What if these two feelings were not solitary wanderers but entwined in a dance,intimately connected like a beautiful and sweet but mysterious couple navigating the intricate steps of human nature.There are several ways to express feelings and emotions,we humans are social creature,we crave for friendships,new experiences and most of we crave for people who adore and love us as much as we adore them.But there's always exceptions,these are the people who enjoy being by themselves,they are what we typically call intoverts.
So intoverts,they have two side one being solitude and the other being their loneliness they like being in solitude but every once in a while they also want some interaction,they get sick of their loneliness and crave for social interaction but they have a hard time with people,their two emotions are in reality their lifechoices with each they live everyday.
Yeah,now back to topic,imagine a moonlit ballroom where a couple is dancing,the couple being solitude and loneliness they engage in a silent tango [Tango is a ballroom dance that branched away from its original Argentine roots by allowing European,American,Hollywood and competitive influence into the style and execution of the dance.The present day tango is divided into two disciplines American and International style]. Solitude,the graceful partner,is a choice,a deliberate retreat into the sacntuary of one's own company.Lonelines, on the other hand,is an uninvited guest,a shadow that clings to the edges of the dance floor.Together ,they create a dance that speaks volumes without uttering a word.
Solitude whispers tales of self-discovery and introspection,inviting individuals to explore the depths of their being .Loneliness,however whispers a different story-a melancholic narrative that yearns for connections an dunderstanding.Together,they form a haunting symphony,echoing the intircate desires of the human heart.Solitude is an artist's retreat ,a canvas for introspection and creative expression.When paired with loneliness,this canvas becomes a mirror reflecting the vulnerabilities and longings buried within.The couple,in their dance,invites individuals to confornt the raw,unfiltered aspects of themselves.
Solitude is the gentle embrace of a quiet evening,a sancutary where the mind finds peace.Loneliness,however is the echo in an empty room, a stark contrast that amplifies the absence of companionship.Together,they create a dance of contrasts,weaving a tapestry of emotions that range form serenity to heartache.Solitude and loneliness,though seemingly opposed,share a paradoxical connection.Solitude,when embraced willingly,can be a source of strength and self-renewal.Loneliness when acknowledged and understood can pay the way for genuine connection with oneself and others.In their dance,they reveal the intrictate balance between the need for solitude and longing for meaningful connections.
Let's think about this in a different comedic way,say If solitude and loneliness were a couple their love child would be a prfect product for an introvert.With its sleek design and cozy interior,it's like having a private sanctuary all to yourself.Say goodbye to pesky interruptions and hello to uninterrupted me-time.Whether you're binge-watching your favourite shows or indulding in a good book,this product is your ultimate partner in crime. So,why settle for just solitude or loneliness when you can have both in one fabulous package? Get yours today and embrace the soliude like never before!
But still,it is just a thought,we love and enjoy solitude but every now and then we feel lonely,we miss someone and that's the human nature.Let's just embrace the dance; rather than shunning the dance of solitude and loneliness, perhaps we should learn to embrace its rythm.Recognize that these emotions, they are not isolated but interconnected facets of the human experience that allows us to navigate their complexities with grace and understanding.
In the ballroom of human soul,if solitude and loneliness were a couple,their dance would be a poignant expression of the human condition.It is a dance that invites us to explore the beauty in solitude,acknowledge the ache in loneliness,and find harmony in the delicate balance between the two.As we witness this enigamatic partnership,let us learn to appreaciate the nuanced steps of the dance,understanding that within its shadows lie the profound stories of our own hearts.
~The Idiomatic Idiot.
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Embrace the shadows,go Bad or go Home
In a world fixated on heroes and their tales of virtue, I stand on the other side,in the shadows where the unapologetic thrive,where chaos reigns and where the bold dare to be bad.For someone who has grown tired of the relentless pursuit of goodness.It's time to embrace the darkness and live by the creed of "Go Bad or Go Home" - a philosophy that exalts the true nature and darkness in the heart.
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I inhaled some fresh air and became toxic
Ever wondered why people complain a lot about their friends and relations being toxic,well the same thought popped in my head.I'm thinking how should i put this,its like I was on a nightwalk with my headphones in just to block out the noise of the world and suddenly my bizzare and utterly confusing thought process led me to a very thoughtful yet very weird thought,what if I'm the only one whose toxic and because of it my friends and relations are getting toxic.
What if I have inhaled some fresh air and became toxic which is completely ironic as fresh air is supposed to clear your mind of intrusive thoughts and despicable feelings and yet in my case this all happens in a very disturbing way.
Let's dive into how my thought process led me to this fact,So what exactly comes to mind when you think about a person being toxic.For exampe if there is a person who doesn't exactly know what toxic person is like and you ask him this question,his straight forward answer would be the person he hates most regardless if the person in reality is toxic or not,the hatered he feels might be because of envy or some past trauma not that it matters though.
Yeah,so this reminds me of some quotes like, "I wonder how many people who don't even know me will hate me just because someone else described me to them".This shows us the judgemental and envoius side of the society.People will judge you based on others opinion about you.
Let's put this through a perspective of s human mind.This persepctive suggests that seemingly small life events can have a large impact on psycology,mental health and behaviour.The perspective also argues that life is uncertain and that people shoud have compassion on themselves during times of transition and look for ways to adopt and grow.
Sorry about that,now let's relate with an example there are many events in our life which are siginificantly small but can change the outcome or future of our life in its entirety. The classic example is when you randomly meet a stranger and that stranger becomes your best friend for life,so meeting the stranger was a small event but that had a significant impact on your life.Let's say you were listening to a song,you liked it but forgot to add it to your playlist and also you forgot its name and now that you can't listen to it again has a effect on your mood.This is a classic example of butterfly effect which is part of chaos theory.This effect explains how a small fluctuation in one condition of nonlinear deterministic system can generate a huge difference in later outcomes.
This all relates to me because of all the major and minor mistakes i did in my life.I inhaled some fresh air and became toxic is exactly true because i became toxic to myself because of the slight changes I made in my enviornment,I grew up not having many friends that led me to develop some bizzare skills like reading body language and getting a idea about their thought process.I'm not afraid of people being toxic to me but rather me being toxic to them,I live in a constant fear of people rejecting me and that's why I'm alway alone.
I don't have a idea about how you should live your life or in reality how exactly do you need to live but I do know one thing, people are not born toxic,they are made toxic. But still they'll hate you for who you are.What exactly I meant by fresh air is the vast experinece I gained from life,about the reality of this world and also by reading about incidents that happen all around the world.
All this makes you question your life choices,were they good ? so far my life choices were equally good and bad. My life choices are the yin and yang of my life I have lived so far,and my toxic trait is that I do not focus on making good choices and regret the bad ones.
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Unique thoughts pop in my Cranium
What if we all of the humans are already extinct and now what we are living today is just a simulation run by some higher inter-dimensional species who have inhabitated earth and they collected the data about us through our remains and their just experiencing how earths inhabitants lived.
If Death is freedom from the drama of the world,why do people fear it,Life is entrance to the world full of drama,but people still embrace it, Why?
If you believe in ghosts,then trust me you have the fear of being rejected by your very own loved ones.
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False Prodigies of God,People call them Doctors
Now maths doesn't seem so uselss,does it.Now people wouldn't understand a singe thing they'll just think that the doctor can aways be blamed for thier losses,we don't have any idea what the prodigies go through everyday of their life.
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I inhaled some fresh air and became toxic
E ver wondered why people complain a lot about their friends and relations being toxic,well the same thought popped in my head.I'm think...
